I HAVE LOST IT! What Am I Doing!?!?!

What the...Am I MAD?!?!?! I really struggled to push through workouts today. I hurt everywhere, but I made it through. I worked out with Michael for a couple of hours today, then took a 1.5 mile walk to the lake and just meditated and listened to some calming music and some teaching from a favorite speaker.

I struggled a lot mentally as I realize more and more just how tall this mountain is. My competitors are world class and sharp! I haven't competed for i think over three years now, so I'm rusty there...plus I feel like a broken down car that someone has called the tow company to get off their property!

I will keep moving forward though...I have counted the cost, and I will meet this challenge. Rise or fall (or fall embarrassingly hard) I will meet it and succeed.

Thanks for being with me...Long day, good night, and we will punch and kick and scream our way through this struggle again tomorrow.

P.S. - There are some very cool things happening btw...I hope to be able to share some of it soon.

P.P.S. - Please pass this blog info on to your friends or family...I appreciate all the support I can get.